SHINE ON YOU!
This song has more meaning to me than I can ever explain I have always been the sensitive type, very emotional. I was once told by a music director when I asked him why I was so sensitive, we're musicians and as musicians our feelings run much deeper than the advantage person. This is good he said because it enables us to be able to pick up a piece of sheet music and take in what it's saying so me can help bring it across to others so others can feel it too. But it can also be bad because we tend to ware our on our sleeves. In this we are easily hurt. He said we also tend to read people. But we have to be careful because we can get the wrong impression.
I've often said to family and friends that I connect with people on an
emotional level. If some one is hurting, I feel their pain. If someone
is frustrated I can feel their fruition and I have to work very hard to
remain calm.
My pastor Ron Pottor once told my Mom that he didn't know how to handle
me that I'm like a crystal vase, I shatter so easily and it's true. He
always told me that I am a very giving person. When I gave him a CD with
the song "Shine On You" on it, he asked me if I wrote it. I said
no. He said was wondering because it sounds like a song I would write.
NEW MEANING!
When Eddie told me what inspired him to write the song, I thought about
my family's fight with cancer. My Mom had cancer in her womb and had to
have her womb removed after having eight children.
She is now being treated for lung cancer. Her doctors are amazed at how
well she is holding up to the treatment. Her treatments are almost and
the doctors say that the treatments will remove the cancer in her lung.
My Mom is also an inspiration to me. Her faith is very strong. I know it's
her faith that is curing her. She witness for the Lord every chance she
gets by telling everyone that God is the one healing her.
My brother Brian had a cancerous tumor attached to his left kidney when
he was five years old. The doctors said that the type of cancer he had
was rare and that they didn't think he would live. They sent him to a special
hospital in New York ( At the time we lived in New Jersey) to be treated.
Mom was so afraid she would lose Brian. I told her that Brian would be
fine. I couldn't see our family without him. Brian showed great faith even
as a little boy, he said, Don't worry Mommy, I'm not gonna die. God won't
let me.
Before his operation, the doctor asked him what was his favorite food.
Brian said pizza. The doctor said, I'll make you a deal. If you pull though
this operation, I'll buy you a pizza all for yourself. Brian said OK.
The doctor told my Mom that if they operate, Brian could die on the operating
table but if they don't operate, he will die.
My Mom was afraid to leave Brian in God's hands for fear God might take
him. But she knew she had no choice but to trust God and his will.
After the opposition, the doctor told my Mom that Brian had pulled through.
The next day when my Mom returned to visit Brian, in his room their was
food everywhere. The doctor and nurses had all pulled together and bought
all that food for Brian and my Mom.
After the opposition the doctor told my Mom that God was in that room.
What happened in that room was a miracle. Not only did they removed the
tumor but they removed all the cancer. There was no trace of cancer in
him.
A few days after Brian came home, he started dehydrating. My Mom took him
back to the hospital. After testing him, they couldn't find the problem.
They told my Mom they were gonna do one last test. It it did not reveal
what the problem was, they would let her take him home so he could die
among his family.
That night my Mom decided to leave Brian in God's hands and told God that
she trusted God's will with Brian. If it was His will to take Brian, she
would let him go.
When my Mom arrived at the hospital, the doctor told her that they found
the problem. He said that when the incision had healed, it healed over
the opening of his intestines, their for it caused him to dehydrate. They
knew they had to operate again or Brian would die. They were concerned
that Brian's tiny body was strong enough for another operation so soon
after the first one, but they had no choice, it had to be done.
The operation was successful.
After the second operation the doctor told my Mom that sometimes the cancer
returns within five years. If after five years, the cancer hadn't returned,
it wouldn't. He would be free and clear.
Five years went by and the cancer did not return.
Brian helps out as director of recreation every year for Bible School.
Brian is the one in the dark blue shirt and white pants. He truly is a
miracle.